Anti-Virus can’t protect you from Insecurity, right?


          First of all: After reading the title of this post, if you are thinking “should it?” then it would be totally fair for you to think like that but the answer to that question is a bold NO! or is it? but then I do hope that they invent an “anti-virus” that controls your insecure feeling. Secondly: Insecurity is not really a virus! (information for noobs) It is an emotional state of mind.

          Don’t know about you but I was never insecure in my life for a LONG time, just short experiences lasting only seconds or sometimes minutes of it but I don’t think I ever will be, it is nothing I am flaunting about or claiming that it as some kind of skill of mine but it is just the way I am and I don’t think of it as a “good” or “bad” because that would be just foolish of me to judge that.

          Well insecurity happens with anybody and everybody unless you are an emotion-less person with no feelings for anything or whatever! Like for example: your spouse talking to another attractive person for a longer time, that can make you feel insecure, your business facing constant loses over a period of time can make you nervous and insecure, your home-work not done on time and you imagining what your teacher would do to you, could make your mind think insecurely; and THESE are exactly the times where you wish something could take away the subject making you insecure – subject which is: the spouse, the business and the home-work in the above mentioned examples – or the subject would do something for you to make you feel SECURE… now obviously non-living things don’t react rationally to the situations and now you know why the “Anti-Virus” invention could help? Although they should call it as “Anti-Insecure +.”

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          Timothy felt a sudden strike of guilt raging upon his mind and he yelled “Stop it! Stop it please!” He continued say that after taking his boxers in his hand and trying to wear it “I am leaving now Sammy, leaving now, leaving you and leaving forever.” He said paused as he sat upright on the double bed where he and Samantha had done things which were unthinkable for Denna. Samantha was confused and she felt like someone had punched her in the face that instant and she was trying to figure out what had just happened and in her reflex she started rolling her hands around his chest got up to his height and started feeling up his abs trying to seduce him and moaning in little voices *ah, ahh* while kissing his neck and lips in a very hardcore manner like almost doing it in frustration. “Enough!” He said and pushed her a little and she fell back on the bed and he said then “She is waiting for me at home, let me go! you don’t know her, she knows about us Samantha and she is very dangerous, this is where it all ends between you and me.” That brought a mixed feeling on Samantha’s face, a mixture of sadness with anger, unable to cry and unable to help herself out of this, she replied in anger “So NOW you care about that BITCH huh?, you fucking insecure two-timing jerk.” and she sobbed lying on the bed bare naked in a dead position with her curvy body while Timothy just took his belongings, he got dressed, kissed her cheeks and stormed out of there before slamming the door hardly.

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          Denna was making soup for two at the kitchen, she was sitting on her chair and she was tenderly slicing up the vegetables with the razor sharp shiny knife which she had bought last week from The Store because, apparently her last knife had proven to be a costly one. She took a deep glance at the knife which had a black handle and some kind of Chinese carving on the handle and she then thought how easily this knife could slice things up with no problem at all? and how easy it would be to stab someone with this small knife and take their life away? take them away from this world, kill them, or just stab herself with it and end this fear? It was no surprise for her because she knew someone who already did that before, who already killed herself in vain because she couldn’t face what she did, she was her mother.

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          Insecurity” is commonly defined as “the state of being subject to danger or injury and in fear.”

OR

1. Not sure or certain; doubtful.
2. Inadequately guarded or protected; unsafe.
3.
Not firm or fixed; unsteady (source : www.thefreedictionary.com)

          It is really hard to run-away from the Insecurity feeling really because when you are experiencing it you will probably become very nervous or uneasy or maybe both, which is totally natural of course! nothing wrong in it and it may also provoke you to unleash unnecessary arrogance towards others or yourself (like how it was assumed in the story above) in any form like physical and verbal. Insecure people, not offending someone, are really immature during that period of Insecurity and they have a continuous tendency of over thinking on everything and anything, consider if you were feeling Insecure (whatever be the reason) and you have a boyfriend, a significant other, then you would not only think about him/her all the time but also think about the things or actions done by them and try to analyze them, correct them if they are wrong and come to conclusions, try to build up the act of the process of the things done and etc., you just can’t stop thinking… Other effects of Insecurity include shyness, paranoia, withdrawal from social life and etc. which are all related to social and cultural life of the individual. It is really all too complicated to be explained in a short post like this but I’m sure you will eventually figure out the real meaning of it! And if you are in your right senses during this bitter and probably the worst experience in your life of Insecurity then you would know what to do and what not, but if you continue to show signs of Insecurity rather than trying to solve your problem then unfortunately you have fallen a prey to “one-of-the-most-hated” feeling ever. EMOTIONAL INSECURITY.

          Eventually people get out of that absurd insecure feeling, just naturally the individual gets over it, it may depend on the potential and intelligence of the person on how fast this process ends but whenever it does, they know they do not want to commit the same crime again. They know about the high stakes. Therefore, a simple solution to avoid insecurity?
Think before you act.

Correct me if I am wrong.

-Sharvil

An insecure girl

Think before it is TOO late.

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The city of Angels. [ Part 2 ]


I know, I know! It has been a while since…wait not a while, a VERY long time since I published anything or this #part2 in specific, but it’s like, what do they say? “better late than never!”; Yes I was actually planning to quit writing until this wonderful friend of mine inspired me again to write and I truly thank her for that, thank you Nidhi and I hope you figure out the story line for your novel and with your truly amazing writing skills I’m sure you will prevail.
And friends, this is my first post after thousand years so please don’t have high expectations.

Getting back to the main topic now which was, MUMBAI! ‘aamchi mumbai’ as the locals call it, which literally means – ‘our mumbai’ has a population of about 18 million people, ranking the highest populated city in India and 6th highest populated city in the whole world. With the great population and different cultures, The Konkanis (fisher folk) were the original inhabitants. While a lot of them are still around (with specially designated residences for them termed ‘koliwadas’), Mumbai sees an influx of all castes, with Marathis forming a majority stand among as the majority of population among many other castes living there, other castes usually found are gujratis, sindhis, punjabis, marwadis, jats, biharis etc.

The City of Mumbai is the capital of one the many states of India called Maharashtra and is divided in 3 major parts which are – Central Mumbai, South Mumbai and the Suburban areas and the railways are divided as Central and Western Railways, with the Central Railways including portions of the Central Mumbai and Western Railways including everything else. Being an Island, the City was originally built on archipelago of seven islands namely – Bombay Island, Parel, Mazagaon, Worli, Colaba and Little Colaba which existed merely 2000 years ago. The total area of the city is calculated as approx. 603 sq km and the density of population about 25,000 persons per sq km.

Now that you know about the area, population and other things mentioned above about the city let me tell you that this city was discovered and introduced into the Europe by the Portuguese explorers and later on were ruled by them before finally being handed over to the East India Company and later on became the capital of them with result of changing the capital from Surat to Mumbai. It was then ruled by the British Government until her country got independence in 1947.
The rule of British and Portuguese in Mumbai resulted as the spread of Christianity in the city and hence a lot of churches are found upright which were built in at around 1500’s.

The city has had many names in the past but it was branded as Bombay by the Europeans and later on changed as Mumbai in 1995 by the political party Shiv Shena when they won the Maharashtra State elections. Politically, the City of Mumbai is a very important place as it is the financial capital of India. People migrate here from different parts of India to gain monetary success, to complete or fulfill their dreams, dreams of becoming something big and what not.

It has everything that a metropolitan city would or should have other than tall and really architecturally modern offices, apartments and houses which are comparatively very less in quantity (but they do exist) and it has a great night life too! lot of pubs to drink around, whores houses, nice and smooth illegal car and bike races, drug dealing, child trafficking is common.
It has one of the world’s largest slums called Dharavi with capturing almost 1/5th of the city’s population in that particular slum area, although there are 4 more bigger slums than Dharavi in Mumbai as of today… You have to live here to understand the situation of the slums in Mumbai.

Kanheri caves, the Gateway of India, The Sanjay Gandhi National Park are some of the many places you could visit at Mumbai, but trust me if you came to India to see some historic monuments or any monuments, this is not the place u should be hanging around, go to Agra or somewhere but not here cuz this place is full of busy people with briefcases!
But overall I would rate this city a 7.5/10 because of the spirit of the people to work together and the unity in diversity, despite the corruption of the politicians and the poverty level increasing and also the widening of the gap between the rich and poor, Mumbai still stands out as one of the most demanding cities in not only India but also in the whole world. Viva Mumbai.

Hope you liked the rather disappointing and uninteresting post.

-Sharvil