Anti-Virus can’t protect you from Insecurity, right?

          First of all: After reading the title of this post, if you are thinking “should it?” then it would be totally fair for you to think like that but the answer to that question is a bold NO! or is it? but then I do hope that they invent an “anti-virus” that controls your insecure feeling. Secondly: Insecurity is not really a virus! (information for noobs) It is an emotional state of mind.

          Don’t know about you but I was never insecure in my life for a LONG time, just short experiences lasting only seconds or sometimes minutes of it but I don’t think I ever will be, it is nothing I am flaunting about or claiming that it as some kind of skill of mine but it is just the way I am and I don’t think of it as a “good” or “bad” because that would be just foolish of me to judge that.

          Well insecurity happens with anybody and everybody unless you are an emotion-less person with no feelings for anything or whatever! Like for example: your spouse talking to another attractive person for a longer time, that can make you feel insecure, your business facing constant loses over a period of time can make you nervous and insecure, your home-work not done on time and you imagining what your teacher would do to you, could make your mind think insecurely; and THESE are exactly the times where you wish something could take away the subject making you insecure – subject which is: the spouse, the business and the home-work in the above mentioned examples – or the subject would do something for you to make you feel SECURE… now obviously non-living things don’t react rationally to the situations and now you know why the “Anti-Virus” invention could help? Although they should call it as “Anti-Insecure +.”



          Timothy felt a sudden strike of guilt raging upon his mind and he yelled “Stop it! Stop it please!” He continued say that after taking his boxers in his hand and trying to wear it “I am leaving now Sammy, leaving now, leaving you and leaving forever.” He said paused as he sat upright on the double bed where he and Samantha had done things which were unthinkable for Denna. Samantha was confused and she felt like someone had punched her in the face that instant and she was trying to figure out what had just happened and in her reflex she started rolling her hands around his chest got up to his height and started feeling up his abs trying to seduce him and moaning in little voices *ah, ahh* while kissing his neck and lips in a very hardcore manner like almost doing it in frustration. “Enough!” He said and pushed her a little and she fell back on the bed and he said then “She is waiting for me at home, let me go! you don’t know her, she knows about us Samantha and she is very dangerous, this is where it all ends between you and me.” That brought a mixed feeling on Samantha’s face, a mixture of sadness with anger, unable to cry and unable to help herself out of this, she replied in anger “So NOW you care about that BITCH huh?, you fucking insecure two-timing jerk.” and she sobbed lying on the bed bare naked in a dead position with her curvy body while Timothy just took his belongings, he got dressed, kissed her cheeks and stormed out of there before slamming the door hardly.


          Denna was making soup for two at the kitchen, she was sitting on her chair and she was tenderly slicing up the vegetables with the razor sharp shiny knife which she had bought last week from The Store because, apparently her last knife had proven to be a costly one. She took a deep glance at the knife which had a black handle and some kind of Chinese carving on the handle and she then thought how easily this knife could slice things up with no problem at all? and how easy it would be to stab someone with this small knife and take their life away? take them away from this world, kill them, or just stab herself with it and end this fear? It was no surprise for her because she knew someone who already did that before, who already killed herself in vain because she couldn’t face what she did, she was her mother.


          Insecurity” is commonly defined as “the state of being subject to danger or injury and in fear.”


1. Not sure or certain; doubtful.
2. Inadequately guarded or protected; unsafe.
Not firm or fixed; unsteady (source :

          It is really hard to run-away from the Insecurity feeling really because when you are experiencing it you will probably become very nervous or uneasy or maybe both, which is totally natural of course! nothing wrong in it and it may also provoke you to unleash unnecessary arrogance towards others or yourself (like how it was assumed in the story above) in any form like physical and verbal. Insecure people, not offending someone, are really immature during that period of Insecurity and they have a continuous tendency of over thinking on everything and anything, consider if you were feeling Insecure (whatever be the reason) and you have a boyfriend, a significant other, then you would not only think about him/her all the time but also think about the things or actions done by them and try to analyze them, correct them if they are wrong and come to conclusions, try to build up the act of the process of the things done and etc., you just can’t stop thinking… Other effects of Insecurity include shyness, paranoia, withdrawal from social life and etc. which are all related to social and cultural life of the individual. It is really all too complicated to be explained in a short post like this but I’m sure you will eventually figure out the real meaning of it! And if you are in your right senses during this bitter and probably the worst experience in your life of Insecurity then you would know what to do and what not, but if you continue to show signs of Insecurity rather than trying to solve your problem then unfortunately you have fallen a prey to “one-of-the-most-hated” feeling ever. EMOTIONAL INSECURITY.

          Eventually people get out of that absurd insecure feeling, just naturally the individual gets over it, it may depend on the potential and intelligence of the person on how fast this process ends but whenever it does, they know they do not want to commit the same crime again. They know about the high stakes. Therefore, a simple solution to avoid insecurity?
Think before you act.

Correct me if I am wrong.


An insecure girl

Think before it is TOO late.


Your love is lifitng me higher.


            “it is normal, it is normal, it is normal, it is normal!”  kept on saying a voice inside her while she was just trying to brush her teeth after dinner; things were pretty normal on the dinner table though, her mother had cooked them some nice chicken wings, there were some fries, green salad with a lot of mayonnaise in it and also long bread pieces on the dinning table, her mom said the prayer before the feast began, as usual, every thing was pretty much the way how it should be for everyone in the family, everyone but Susie. “Pass me the salad please Suz” cried out her mom, Susie didn’t even notice her the first time, the second time her mom asked for it, she heard her but her mind did not let her do anything because she was busy thinking about something…or rather someone.
Susie was 16, Straight brown colored medium length hair, dark brown eyes, white pale skin like someone had painted her white, a pretty face with a fat nose and a body for which half of the guys from her high school would kill  each other to have, but she had no pride for it, in fact she hated it because whenever she would pass by every guy would continue staring at her boobs which would make it very awkward for her. She was very polite, soft spoken and gullible, like an open book she would expose her nature to everyone who would want to read her. That was the main reason why she fell in love with a boy who was thousands of miles away from her.

It was summer time, Kieran worked at McDonald’s from Monday to Thursday in the afternoon shift in the summer, his shift had just got over and he was coming back home on his red BMX bike with black stripes, which he had bought from his savings of  last couple of weeks;  His family wasn’t very rich, in fact not even closer to it, that’s why he had to work in the summer to earn himself some money and spend it on certain luxuries he liked to enjoy all by himself. He was quite tall about 6’2″, athletic physique although he did not play any sport himself but he liked to maintain his body, White skin with a bit of tan,  medium length wavy hair like the Italian poets in the 1600’s, blue eyes with a perfect jaw line and clean shaved like he always preferred.

“Dude you packed all the things for tomorrow? We are going to the farm house right?” said a voice from his side, it was Ken. “What?” oh shit how do I tell him now, he thought, and said “About that, uh I don’t think I’m gonna come you guys go without me..”. “What? Why not dude we had been planning for this from  Last Monday!” Said Ken, “Don’t tell me you’re not coming with us because as usual you wanna talk to that new girl in your life who lives half way across the nation.” There was an awkward pause between them for a few seconds. Kieran had got a frown on his face after what Ken said, even though he wasn’t sure if he was faking it or not but he knew he needed it for sure. “Shit dude your seriously not coming for that reason? wow your impossible man, unbelievable! I hope you at least get to kiss her in your dreams, you wanker” Said Ken and walked away from there. “that hurt a bit I guess” Kieran said to himself and went inside his house.


That story above was just a short version of another normal story of an Online Relationship between two people, who are living thousands of miles away from each other but still they are giving more priority to each other than to their friends in real  life and also their families sometimes.. This case is usually applicable only to the teenage generation though.
Why do they fall for someone living so far? How can someone trust another person who lives on the other end of the nation? Why can’t they just love someone from nearby who they can trust and live with? These are they very frequently asked questions about the people who date online and the answer to all these questions are very similar and you know them too, you just haven’t explored them yet!

When does this happen? ask your self if you were a teenager at home, addicted to internet of course like everyone else! and you met this perfect person on a random chat site who fits in all your needs of “perfect partner” and you both have great compatibility and frankly that person is quite attractive for you, more attractive than most of the people you’ve seen in your area, wouldn’t you talk to that person and think of getting involved with that person? Of course that thought would cross your mind and that’s where the teenagers make the mistake.

Its nothing like Online Relationships are not trustworthy or they always fail or something like that, Online Relationships do prevail sometimes, like people meet each other in real life after knowing each other online for years! then they hang out with each other twice or thrice a month and then they finally decide to move in together or get married or something like that. But that’s not what happens all the time in real life…. or we could say that happens only to the people who get lucky when they hit “I’m feeling lucky” button on Google. Usually the relationships that are over the internet don’t work out because of many reasons, some of them being: Long-distance thing, Cheating on each other, Lying to each other frequently or the people just realize its just not going to happen between them and they just stop it then!

Like everything Online Relationships also has their plus points and negative ones; as far as I know you must have discovered some of the negative ones of Online Relationship from the above context for sure but when the positive points are considered they are also very hugely beneficial or you could say very profitable.
Everyone in this world gets stressed out, even if you’re a businessman, a postman, a normal sales executive, an actor or just a house person; everyone feels stressed out and they obviously feel like removing this stress on someone or by taking support of someone close, just getting rid of it. That my friends is where the Online Relationship helps. It’s not like the people in real life don’t support each other whenever necessary; it’s just that some people don’t like to share their personal information to someone unless they trust them very much; in an Online Relationship you either trust the person so much and tell them the situation or you just don’t care enough to not tell them because that person lives on the other end of the world, it’s like you’re not even gonna meet them ever so why not just tell them and take your burden off? Yup that helps a lot, sharing your stress to others helps a lot to take off the burden from your head and also you feel like you have someone to listen to even when you’re totally alone or when the family/friends have gone out somewhere and you need “a-shoulder-to-cry-to” you can always take help from someone online. These are some of the positive points of Online Relationships that I could think of, but I’m sure there are a lot and lot of more and in my opinion I would suggest if you have an option to date someone online, don’t hesitate, go for it because you never know if that person turns out to be your future husband/wife….or maybe someone who steals all your money from your house (ironic I know) but seriously try it!

Live Life Curiously. That’s my way of living.


The Small Town Girl.

She likes to read and she likes to paint, being very young, she does all the things in the world which you would think are very boring or unrealistic (especially if you have ever lived in a city which is very busy like New York City). She could stare at a boy’s photo, who would have made her smile, for thousands of seconds and think of him for days and nights while going to sleep, while having dinner; she would just imagine about him and re-build all the talks they have had. she wouldn’t hesitate to talk about him to her parents even if they did not like that boy. She had been told that he was not trustworthy; she had been told to stay away from him, but neither did she listen to them, nor did she follow. She had faith that no one could destroy; no one but him.

Her blue eyes, long brown hair and those attractive lips, complete with her personality and her nature, make her the perfect girl; however, she still feels she is not perfect. She feels she is left out. She has her dreams, many dreams, she wants to follow. Sometimes she feels blocked; sometimes it’s the dreams that just don’t seem to be happening anytime. “Why can’t I?” Speaks a voice inside her; it inspires her. Feeling rejuvenated, she feels nothing is impossible. Setting her target, she marches her way forward. Forward to her dream to make it happen. Nothing can stop her.

Now after many years have passed, she knows she doesn’t have much time left. She just sits back with her lover on the couch in a home very far from the town; she watches her grandchildren repeat the same mistakes. Thinking about the life she had been through, the good times and the bad times. She becomes very emotional at that moment; she starts to remember things from the past but she does not cry, nope not a tear. In fact, she just gives a very tender smile to her husband and gets one in return and finally closes her eyes.